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I keep haveing bad dreams about my son JJ .He can't talk but in my dreams he does he says goodbye and tries to leave but I stop him he gets mad at me, goes back to his room and slams the door. I sit down and finsh my coffee so as to give him time to calm down.When I go to his room he looks up at me and says,' You always stop me.' Then I wake up.And I do keep him from running out the door,not to be mean ,but to keep him safe so he doesn't get hurt.My son is 15 and has many handicaps. Anyways my dream makes me worry. Am I holding him back some how?Is my fear of him getting hurt keeping me from letting him grow up? Oh I wish he could talk . I wish there was a school he could go to to help him learn. He goes to public high school now, but school and home are not the same and thay need to be. If I could find a school for autism maybe he would learn a lot more, but I live in a state that does not have one. At school he does a lot more for them than he does at home. Well anyway as you can see I'm confused. Any help out there ?

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