Hello lovely's,

This is one of my most challenges to do this group. Its hard but also very rewarding. I appreciate your loving kindness as well as your paitence. And remember - this is also your group. You all are welcome to post things in here. I am working on 2 new pieces of writing. One is called "Truly Loving," someone - and the other is one way that can help those who have been victims of abuse or know's someone who has. That one is tough to write, but one that is also very rewarding. Have a wonderful day & peace be with you all Always. "Keep Smilin."

everytime i think about him, or any memory of the incident, i feel helplessly vulnerable. i feel like i am standing in front of a large group of my friends, relatives, and strangers, completely naked. and everyone is pointing at me and just laughing. nonstop laughter and they're blocking the door so i can't leave, but i can't cover my body with my arms and all i hear is laugh after laugh after laugh. and i feel used and vulnerable all over again. i feel hurt and alone. however, i remember to think positively and not let him win. and i'm okay. but i'd like to prevent feeling this way in the future.

For ohandtheblues:
One way you can help yourself when you feel like its more than you can bare, is to get to doing something else. Listen to music, go talk to a friend, talk to you mom, no matter what hour it is. Do what ever it takes to get him & the incident out of your head. Remember too which also takes a lot of practice, & practice over & over again, until it becomes like anything else you would do without thinking about it is: Get it out of your head, don't allow that to be in there rent free. And also remember that person or persons are "spirtually ill." This Does Not Dismay what happened! However, it will help you to Heal! And that can no longer be with you as often. Do not allow that to control you anymore! I know its easier said than done. Believe me. But the more you practice by doing something else - like getting busy with a project or talking to someone, as well as practice not allowing them to be in your head, it will leave! And you won! For what better justice that you can allow yourself with that, besides actually seeing that person behind bars. It is kind of like saying "Ha, you sick person can not hurt me anymore!" For I will not allow that! You are spirtually ill & I pity you! You will then eventually set yourself free from it. Honest, you keep on fighting it my dear one! Dont allow it to take over. Not even for a second. You have suffered enough! And I want you to Shine, shine, shine